abtract reality.

Life is like a disease. That eats away at us all and has no remorse. Sometimes its slower and less obvious and sometimes it just takes a huge fucking chunk out of you, chews you up, and spits you out. How can people sit back and look at all the shit going on in the world and say, oh its gods will. Come on. There are two things holding me back from screaming out THERE IS NO GOD. First, my parents broken hearts upon hearing this. Secondly, the fact that the church has subconsciously instilled the fear in me. Not love, or whatever it is they speak of, but cold hearted fear. The only thing that the Christian religion has left me with, is fear of hell. Fear of a place that doesn't even exist. Hell is life on earth! It already is. We are already in it. No one can understand the reality or point of death, other than a new beginning. Beginning of what? We don't know. Lost souls roam around the earth, they aren't suppose to be here. They are suppose to have moved on, to another time, another life, another dimension. So what is keeping them around? Unrest? Something they did not bother with during this life that is now demanding to be resolved? Fear? Denial? Maybe this is something we need to think about while still on the earth. While we still have our chance.
I'm in no way ever going to bash the church, or search through the bible to find loop holes that proves its not true. Why would anyone ever do that? Why would you try so hard (and trust me doing that would not be an easy thing to do) to take away someones reason to live? Their faith? As for Christians, why do you go through other peoples religions and try to prove they are wrong too? The world is full of competitive people who just want to win. Who just want to be right. Be like the masons, who don't say a word unless they are asked! I don't know, I don't believe in crushing someones faith. Let them be. Let me be.